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lq-at-school:

(a visit to dr. L - 5)

“You should really be proud of yourself, Lowan.”

You try your best to smile at Dr. L, but it feels unnatural on your face and doesn’t quite reach your eyes, so you stop; you draw your legs in a little more, crossing your arms. A defensive posture, one you’ve assumed many times before on this couch. You didn’t hold it against Lorana; to you, it was her job, to gently break through your defenses (lies) and to help you face reality, the painful bullshit that it was.

But it didn’t mean that you had to like it. 

She’s looking down at her clipboard, where your report card rests. You didn’t give it to her; the school did, as part of your terms. At least there was someone out there who gave half a shit about your grades, the school surely thought. “You managed to bring your grades up from failing in all but two subjects, and your English grade- two grades since your interim.” She taps it with her pencil, a pleasant smile on her face. You avert your eyes from it; it’s an uncomfortable feeling, her being proud of you, especially for something like that.

“It’s not as good as it could’ve been,” you mumble, leaning against the couch.   ”I went from ‘total fuckup’ to, to ‘slight fuckup’.”  The sun isn’t shining into the room as strongly as you’re used to, in your after school appointments, and the words taste bitter on your tongue. “If I hadn’t given up so early on, but that’s just w-what I do, you know? I just….”

“It doesn’t have to be, though. It never had to be, and you’ve proven it to yourself now.” Tap, tap. “You’ll just have to try your best in summer school, and then next year… but I’m really curious, though. What brought this change around, in your mind?”

Lorana looks very interested in this, pencil posed over her notepad as she sets your report card down on her desk, and for a moment you entertain the notion of actually telling her the truth- that you magically became yourself a decade older for a week, that you saw a future for yourself where you were happy and content and married, and that such a ridiculous idea, one that had never even crossed your mind before, was now something you were clinging to as an idea, as a proof that maybe, just maybe, your life would be something more than pointless —

But you’ve done your stay in hospitals before, and the idea of being sent back to the crazy ward was not particularly appealing to you, not at this time. So you sigh, and remain silent for a moment, eyes looking out the window, at the sunset off in the distance; at the wallpaper on the far wall, at your tattered backpack leaning against it. You still carried it with you, even though it’s the summer now. You carry your notebook in it, and you take it with you everywhere now.

As if you were carrying that hope around with you, or at least the physical evidence of it. How… how sentimental of you.

“I’ve… I’ve taken to writing,” you mumble. 

What do you mean I drink too much caffeine?

She’s always the last to fall asleep.

adachimerica:

pinaFIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

these are so cute wow im going to PEE

Do you know what the little cracks in the glaze are called?

Pinafore AU archaeler!  Miss Achim von Schreiber.  She collects bits of broken pottery and tries to buy antiques with her savings when the students are allowed in town.

lowquality-onceler:

Eh, sure! B-but 48 hours s-sure seems like a lot! I don’t think I could k-keep this up for that long. M-maybe just this one post? Y-yeah, okay! Exciting!

….h-huh. That’s weird, that d-doesn’t really look like me at all, now, d-does it? T-the hair’s too dark, and the t-tie is supposed to have stripes, right… 

Ha ha, man. HD s-sure is weird!!

adachimerica:

lowquality-onceler:

Er…. n-not as well as I used to, s-sorry.

I d-don’t, uhm. H-have the right sort of traction in my fingers, w-with all my bandages on… and they really start to sting if I press on them too much. The, uhm… the fret board? Pressing on that, ergh. Really would do a number to them, and they’ve already had quite the number done to them, I’d say. 

Plus, m-my coordination with my fingers isn’t w-what it used to be, too. I mean… t-they’re kind of slow, you know? It might look to y’all that they’re alright, b-because I can pose them and all in pictures, but… h-ha ha, the process to get them to look correct is k-kind of embarrassing. I’m just a mess of limbs here, now. 

S-so, sorry, anon. N-no guitar from me f-for quite some time. O-or any sort of instrument, that requires having any sort of finesse. I b-bet I could kind of still sing, though, b-but I haven’t practiced at all in a long time, and I mean… y-you can’t hear it and all, b-because it’s just text, b-but my voice has been kind of hoarse and weak. Ever since…. y-yeah.

I’d b-be more upset if I had ever been really any good at music, though. Which I wasn’t, t-to no one’s surprise. 

another entry sketched out in pen beforehand!! im kind of liking how these are turning out this way, i feel like maybe they have a bit more personality…. i draw a little better with traction i think

anyways yeah lq and music wee hoo

adachimerica:

archaeology-ler:

That questions sure came out of nowhere!

I don’t think I would eat another person, not if I could help it at least.  I mean, I have pretty good access to food without having to turn around and start chopping another person up against their will.

Although…there was there have been some recent archaeological findings regarding cannibalism during the worst years of the Jamestown settlement.  The starving time had been known to be really bad, since archaeologists found a lot of bones from unusual food items, but this was the first confirmed case of cannibalism.  They ate the girl’s brain!  They must have been awfully desperate…

I couldn’t tell you for sure if I wouldn’t do the same in those circumstances.

YEAH ARCHAE IS BACK *U*

#well let me tell you about the history of it
#i love how he answered this 100% seriously

Archaeler would give himself an A in his own class and feel like he earned it.

adachimerica:

we’re too similar, losing our minds with cabin fever …

(via truffulajam)

adachimerica:

i was gonna have this be the cover of LQ FST 2 but then i realized i still dont have a good enough selection of songs cultivated so whatever here’s this kid again. thrilling